Dr. Bartlett called a whole bunch of people up from the audience and lined them up like dominoes. When he was making a final adjustment on the group I found myself caught up in the energy of it and just started spontaneously laughing ecstatically in my seat. He told us to make a bladder meter and when the knob reached red he'd send us all on a break. I tried to pay attention and didn't notice it go to red when we broke for a bathroom break. I walked out into the hallway in a drunken state swaying and flopping my arms as I walked. I decided to go to the lesser known ladies room in hopes of there being a shorter line. When low and behold I stumbled upon Dr. Bartlett working his magic on a 29-year-old woman in a wheel chair. My mind just couldn't compute what was happening, but I just sat there in a dazed and confused state my fingers in my mouth feeling very silly and blissed out. He worked her skinny legs and feet and adjusted her to the point where eventually he could move her whole leg up over her torso and around her head. The reactions of the woman and her mother who was kneeling on the floor next to her just brought me to tears. When the show was over I had to attempt to go to the bathroom in this state of mind. I couldn't stand up straight and fell against the wall while I attempted to wash my hands.
We watched Dr. Bartlett bring up person after person up to the stage and each time the person would fall over or react in some other rediculous way. I still couldn't really understand how he was doing it especially when he kept saying I'm not doing anything. I just made up this tool to give to the ego so it can feel like it is doing something. After his long scientific explanation I finally figured out that what he was doing was getting the conscious minds of a large group of people so use to observing such a phenomena that it would become normal to us. At one point he said, "Boy it's hot in here. Does anyone else thing it's hot in here?" Then with a flick of his fingers it suddenly became cooler in the room and I could feel a cool breeze rushing down on to me. Magic.
Finally by the end of the day it was our turn to do what he could do. I tried it out on Karis. I first noticed two points on her body put my hands there then I imagined that I was flying through the air riding on the back of a beluga whale. This took my mind off of doing anything sufficiently enough that sure enough Karis's body weakened where I put my hand. I moved immediately on to the next person no stopping to figure out what I just did. I repeated this on five other people to the point where I came to the conclusion that "I can do nothing!" One lady I was working on bent over and I touched the top of her head (my first point) and then noticed a point just beyond her tail bone and when I connected it and collapsed the wave it pulled me off in that direction towards it. This same lady worked on me and seemed to be touching points on me that were directly related to issues I wanted to work on.
Then we practiced the time travel tool. Two different people who worked on me both ended up making me completely collapse at age 19 a very significant year for me and this was validation that the time travel thing works. One lady from San Diego was so good she was getting me to collapse all over the place to the point where I had to sit down. Afterwards I found myself still in my drunken state downing several glasses of water. I can't remember what I asked one of the facilitators as I was about to leave, but she said the most profound thing I heard from the entire seminar. She said to "notice what is different even if it's just a slight change and then as you pay attention to that it will expand out from there." At that moment, I realized where I had erred in the past with all my other approaches to healing. When I got a chiropractic treatment for me back, for example, I would keep checking to see if it wasn't hurting anymore. In other words, I kept noticing what was the same instead of what was different.
I drove home and told Rowan all about my experiences. I felt so ecstatic and floaty while driving I thought I would have so much energy to get stuff done that night. As soon as I arrived home, I flopped down on to the bed and didn't want to get up for the rest of the evening. My body felt so floppy and when Brian brought me dinner I didn't even want to sit up to eat it. I just ate it laying down and at 7pm I fell promptly to sleep and didn't wake up again until 6am the next morning. I recall one very vivid sexual dream where I was a man who had met a young woman with long flowing raven black hair who was very innocent sexually. So as a man I was teaching her and was patient with her and would allow to do only what she was comfortable with and letting her know what I would like to do next instead of surprising her with something she wasn't comfortable with. Then an older man who reminded me of James Garner walked into the room with only his boxers on and wanted to make it a three some. I got rid of him right away. The sexual experience didn't go very far (I still had my boxers on). All she had to do was to start licking on my lower belly and my nipples and I was so overcome with passion and ecstasy that I woke up from the dream.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
3rd Day of Matrix Seminar - Sunday December 7th 2008
Today we worked with archetypes. The first lady I practiced with wanted me to practice using parallel realities. So she said say for example I have a problem with this knee. Well I found that instead of thinking to use parallel realities I got a vision of a 2x4 board. Then I thought oh I'll make a splint with it and straighten the knee out. Instead of validating the fact that I had managed to come up with the board thing she was like, "but you didn't use the parallel reality." She didn't seem to understand that that was not what came in at the moment. I seem to be really comfortable figuring out if I should use a frequency, parallel reality, time travel, or archetype. One lady I worked on I saw a big red heart on her chest, then I saw an arrow going through it. My initial reaction to seeing this was to judge and I wondered why I had imagined stabbing her with this arrow then I let that judgement go and asked what am I to do with this? Oh, pull it out. Then I suchered up the remaining slit in the heart, poured hydrogen peroxide over the stitches and let that sizzle for awhile until the hole was completely clear and repaired. The next woman collapsed to the ground into child's pose and then I thought to draw a goddess spiral on the backside of her heart chakra I explained to her what I was doing and she said, "Give it to me." and with that I just started laughing hysterically. She wanted to know what made me laugh afterwards and I told her nothing really. It was just a feeling that overcame me. She said I was the only one so far who had made her collapse like that. The next guy turned up some frequency so high that I laughed harder than I think I ever laughed in my life. It was so intense I wanted him to stop. Then I did the guy and I noticed his belly sticking out and I got an image of a can of Coors. "What do I do with this?" Oh, put it in the fridge. Now what? Shrink the fridge down and out of existance." At the moment the fridge zapped out the guys body slumped over. I practiced on another lady while we were standing in line in the ladies room. She told me that she was having some difficulty with her shoulder. I noticed some stars on her necklace which lead me in a rocket ship to Sirius where I met a mermaid. At this point the line got to where we had to split up into the bathroom stalls. She said to ask the Mermaid what I should do? Okay. So as I sat on the toilet the mermaid told me to pull a gold chain out of her mouth. So I pulled and pulled and then I noticed a big ball like a prisoner's chain at the end on the floor where the chain was coiling. "Now what should I do?" Oh, throw it down a big drain just like what Superman did with the chain of kryptonite around his neck. I told her what I did while we washed our hands. She said her shoulder felt a little bit better.
Throughout the whole seminar other than making people collapse I didn't feel like I had experienced anything that I hadn't experienced before. I felt like the people I was working on were getting a more profound experience than me. I wondered if maybe I had gotten my vibration so high that what they were experiencing as profound seemed normal to me. I talked to a facilitator about this. She had me two-point myself and turn up the intensity of the experience. It didn't seem to be working, but I decided to let it integrate overnight and see what happened the next day. I wasn't quite as tired and was able to get a few things done that night.
Throughout the whole seminar other than making people collapse I didn't feel like I had experienced anything that I hadn't experienced before. I felt like the people I was working on were getting a more profound experience than me. I wondered if maybe I had gotten my vibration so high that what they were experiencing as profound seemed normal to me. I talked to a facilitator about this. She had me two-point myself and turn up the intensity of the experience. It didn't seem to be working, but I decided to let it integrate overnight and see what happened the next day. I wasn't quite as tired and was able to get a few things done that night.
Last Day of Seminar Monday December 8th Level 2
Today I started to get frustrated because I knew other people were experiencing altered states of reality and having hallucinations I was still just seeing things with my minds eye. With one lady I was working on I was expressing this frustration. She was a hypnotherapist from Bellvue. I told her I could see a gold lining around her and that lining became gold thread that came from a spool on her shoulder. I pulled it out and a little kitten on the floor was playing with the thread. Then I got the idea to make her a sewing machine. I put the spool on the top of the machine (her shoulder) pulled it down, wound up the bobbin and pressed on the peddle. I sewed her a patchwork quilt made of gold, silver, violet purple, and indigo blue fabric. Then the quilt became a kite which I was holding with the gold thread. The kitten continued to play with the kite string on the floor. I didn't want to let it go, but then she suggested I let it go and then it flew off beyond the atmopsphere and smacked into a space ship. The space men took the kite inside their ship and took it with them to the Pleidaes. Dr. Bartlett was starting to talk again so we quickly had to end our session and I dropped the kite back through a worm hole it landed with a thunk and I gave it back to her. She said, "And you think you can't see." She also had me practice stepping outside of a box that had formed. I could feel my way in the box and was busting my way loose from it. A lady walked past and she could sense something expanded beyond us as she worked her way around the box.
My issue of trust was triggered when we learned about windows. The basic concept was that if you can open the window that's a yes and if you can't open it that's a no. I couldn't feel the stuck feeling of hitting a window very well at all. This took me back to a time when I trusted God and felt strongly that this was what I should be doing and then I ended up having the most traumatic experience of my life. I didn't feel like practicing on anyone and the crowds felt too overwhelming so I wandered out into the hallway, sat down, and leaned against a wall. I just wanted to cry. Then out of the corner of my eye this guy approached, Thomas, from Napa, CA. I had worked on him before and then I talked to him briefly outside in the atrium. He touched my shoulder gently and it felt really comforting. He told me to just welcome the emotion and tears started to roll down my cheeks. My heart chakra really ached and I almost wanted to reach up and touch it myself when I peeked my eyes open and noticed that he was working on my heart from a distance. He intuited where I needed his hand to go. I kept taking deep breaths and in less than five minutes I was starting to feel better. Then he said to me, "The dolphins really like you. They want you to come out and play." And at this I started to chuckle and then I saw a vision of two dolphins and I in the ocean playing and splashing with them and their smiley faces and twinkly eyes. Thomas seemed to be going for a ride with me as he started to giggle with glee and get overwhelmed by the dolphins and they're playfulness. "they want me to race with them," he said. Then the music started signaling that it was time to come back. He helped me up and I thanked him. "Come on, come on, now touch me babe, can't you see that I am not afraid..." were Jim Morrisons' lyrics. I danced and flew through the air blowing away any remaining emotional dust. In such a brief period I went from sad to happy.
I could hardly pay attention to the final "lecture" from Dr. Bartlett. I was so fried and so glad that today was the last day. I did notice the bladder meter this time go to red and then immediately afterward he had us take a break. He didn't even mention or remind us of the bladder meter it just appeared briefly.
Karis and I practiced making modules on each other. Mine was filled with enough money to make all my dreams come true among other things. When she put it in me, I felt high as a kite and my body started to stir in circles to the left from my hips. Karis filled her module and frequency 18 lifted up my arm and I had this feeling that my hand was going to go right through her, but instead it hit up against her chest. We gave each other a hug and we both went to our heart centers and I could feel our bodies shifting and relaxing down, melting into each other and we both started to laugh ecstatically.
In the end no instant healings occurred on me, instead I left with a feeling of curiosity, "I wonder how this is going to continue to change?"
My issue of trust was triggered when we learned about windows. The basic concept was that if you can open the window that's a yes and if you can't open it that's a no. I couldn't feel the stuck feeling of hitting a window very well at all. This took me back to a time when I trusted God and felt strongly that this was what I should be doing and then I ended up having the most traumatic experience of my life. I didn't feel like practicing on anyone and the crowds felt too overwhelming so I wandered out into the hallway, sat down, and leaned against a wall. I just wanted to cry. Then out of the corner of my eye this guy approached, Thomas, from Napa, CA. I had worked on him before and then I talked to him briefly outside in the atrium. He touched my shoulder gently and it felt really comforting. He told me to just welcome the emotion and tears started to roll down my cheeks. My heart chakra really ached and I almost wanted to reach up and touch it myself when I peeked my eyes open and noticed that he was working on my heart from a distance. He intuited where I needed his hand to go. I kept taking deep breaths and in less than five minutes I was starting to feel better. Then he said to me, "The dolphins really like you. They want you to come out and play." And at this I started to chuckle and then I saw a vision of two dolphins and I in the ocean playing and splashing with them and their smiley faces and twinkly eyes. Thomas seemed to be going for a ride with me as he started to giggle with glee and get overwhelmed by the dolphins and they're playfulness. "they want me to race with them," he said. Then the music started signaling that it was time to come back. He helped me up and I thanked him. "Come on, come on, now touch me babe, can't you see that I am not afraid..." were Jim Morrisons' lyrics. I danced and flew through the air blowing away any remaining emotional dust. In such a brief period I went from sad to happy.
I could hardly pay attention to the final "lecture" from Dr. Bartlett. I was so fried and so glad that today was the last day. I did notice the bladder meter this time go to red and then immediately afterward he had us take a break. He didn't even mention or remind us of the bladder meter it just appeared briefly.
Karis and I practiced making modules on each other. Mine was filled with enough money to make all my dreams come true among other things. When she put it in me, I felt high as a kite and my body started to stir in circles to the left from my hips. Karis filled her module and frequency 18 lifted up my arm and I had this feeling that my hand was going to go right through her, but instead it hit up against her chest. We gave each other a hug and we both went to our heart centers and I could feel our bodies shifting and relaxing down, melting into each other and we both started to laugh ecstatically.
In the end no instant healings occurred on me, instead I left with a feeling of curiosity, "I wonder how this is going to continue to change?"
The Day After the Matrix Seminar - Tuesday December 9th
I woke up feeling absolutely tired and I had to leave for work at 10am. I finally pried my body up off the bed and wondered how I was going to get it to wake up. I stood in front of the bathroom mirror and noticed some points, went into my heart center, and my body collapsed at that. Hey it still works and on myself too. I decided to take some time and go soak in the hot tub at Brian's apartment complex. For some reason the key card didn't open the gate. I desperately needed a soak so I climbed the fence and got in that way. I took my glasses off and stared beyond the pansies in the flower pot above the spa. I was hoping to see some fairies. Then I practiced two pointing and sure enough my body would collapse down in the hot tub.
dreaded going to work and I had to console my inner child, "I know you don't want to go to work, but unfortunately you have to go. There's no way out of this." As I walked back to the apartment, I heard my phone beep. I don't know why I didn't hear it ring at the spa. My first thought was to wait and check my message after I was in the car on my way to work. I was running late. My second thought was that it was probably my client telling me I didn't need to come in today and pay me anyways for my time. I went ahead and checked it and my second thought was correct. Yippie! I was so relieved that the Universe had supported me in my need to rest that day. I walked to the library to watch a movie there and forgot that Brian's library doesn't open until 11am and it was 10:30. So I walked back to the apartment, had some lunch, and went back to sleep until 3:30pm.
dreaded going to work and I had to console my inner child, "I know you don't want to go to work, but unfortunately you have to go. There's no way out of this." As I walked back to the apartment, I heard my phone beep. I don't know why I didn't hear it ring at the spa. My first thought was to wait and check my message after I was in the car on my way to work. I was running late. My second thought was that it was probably my client telling me I didn't need to come in today and pay me anyways for my time. I went ahead and checked it and my second thought was correct. Yippie! I was so relieved that the Universe had supported me in my need to rest that day. I walked to the library to watch a movie there and forgot that Brian's library doesn't open until 11am and it was 10:30. So I walked back to the apartment, had some lunch, and went back to sleep until 3:30pm.
2nd Day After Matrix Seminar -
I awoke this morning so wanting to do nothing again. I still felt tired. I couldn't not bring myself to write, or clean or any number of things that I was now behind on because I was in NY for a week and then went to this seminar. I was suppose to meet a friend to talk that morning and I really didn't want to leave the house. I called him and it turned out he had sent me an email telling me he couldn't get together until this afternoon. Well I had already made plans to do a rebirthing session over in Seattle this afternoon. So we had to reschedule. Okay I'm off the hook. So I took a hot bath and put lavender, and crystals as well as Epson salts in the tub. I did the two point thing again and my right hand was directed to draw a giant spiral in the air where I then reached in and pulled out a chunk of information and then my hand moved of its own accord as to where the information should be inserted in my body. Then I two pointed my knee and sure enough it seemed to ease the pain to where I could sit in easy pose. I kept reworking different points on it until it was completely comfortable. Then I two pointed my jaw (I have TMJ off and on) and afterwards massaged it and there weren't any tender spots. I did this on all the areas of my body that I noticed were uncomfortable. "It works, yeah." I finally made my body drive into town to prepare for my journey to Seattle. On the way I felt a pressure sensation on my head and third eye. I sat amused and observing it and then the feeling progressed to where my lips smiled in a drunk fashion and then for no particular reason I just burst out laughing so hard my stomach muscles started to ache. I floated to the library and felt a slight blissed out feeling not as strong as at the Seminar. I realized that I really didn't want to go to Seattle, but I felt obligated because we had made these plans so far in advance. Somehow I didn't get his email with his new number and wasn't able to contact him in time before the last ferry that would get me there in time. Today was just one of those days where I didn't want to talk to anyone or do anything. Very frustating when you have stuff to do. I wondered if the tiredness had to do with feeling so overwhelmed with things to get done and not knowing where to start and thus not starting anything at all or if I was simply still recovering from the seminar. Okay so I'm off the hook again today. I sat in easy pose on my chair at the library and my knee was a little uncomfortable so I reworked it again and it was comfortable again.
Matrix Miracle with my computer - Tuesday January 13th 2009
Below is a letter I wrote to the people at Matrix Energetics:
Hey Cece,
My computer was having problems. Every time I booted it, it would say, "OPERATING SYSTEM CAN NOT BE FOUND". After rebooting it four times I got fed up and 2-pointed it and it would work. I did this for a few days. Finally it got to the point where I could not get into it even after 2-pointing, time traveling, and putting it in an alternate reality. I thought, "Oh great I can't afford another computer right now." But a funny thing happened. That night my computer got stolen out of my car in my quiet little neighborhood. Now my renters insurance will cover it which means that Matrix Energetics worked because since it couldn't fix it, it just gave me a new computer all together. You're welcome to share this story with other EMer's. And could you do me a favor and mail me copies of the Matrix Manuals Level 1 & 2 they were inside my computer bag which was stolen along with the computer. Thanks a bunch,
Cheers!
Solstice
Hey Cece,
My computer was having problems. Every time I booted it, it would say, "OPERATING SYSTEM CAN NOT BE FOUND". After rebooting it four times I got fed up and 2-pointed it and it would work. I did this for a few days. Finally it got to the point where I could not get into it even after 2-pointing, time traveling, and putting it in an alternate reality. I thought, "Oh great I can't afford another computer right now." But a funny thing happened. That night my computer got stolen out of my car in my quiet little neighborhood. Now my renters insurance will cover it which means that Matrix Energetics worked because since it couldn't fix it, it just gave me a new computer all together. You're welcome to share this story with other EMer's. And could you do me a favor and mail me copies of the Matrix Manuals Level 1 & 2 they were inside my computer bag which was stolen along with the computer. Thanks a bunch,
Cheers!
Solstice
Adventures and Miracles in the Matrix
Well when my computer got stolen so did my day planner where I've kept notes of when miracle events happened. Below are highlights I remember from memory, but not necessarily in chronological order:
Parking
Matrix works almost consistently on finding me a great parking spot.
Traffic
I hit 10 mph traffic heading north bound on I-5 as I headed to work one morning. After a few minutes of that, I thought, "Okay I can't take this anymore." I 2-pointed the traffic moving and immediately my foot lowered down on the accelerated and the car lurched forward as the traffic suddenly moved and allowed me to get up to 50 mph. I went from 10 to 50 mph in less than a minute. Sometimes we just forget how powerful we are and that we don't have to just sit and accept a situation as it is.
Changing the Weather
This one is a little more difficult for me to feel like I have control over. As we headed out of the worst snow storm the Seattle area has seen in 44 years, I 2-pointed the predicted weather for Los Angeles. I really need some warm days and currently the weather for Christmas Eve was 55 degrees and raining, a cold snap for L.A. The weather predicted that it wouldn't get up to 70 degrees until after we had to return back to Seattle. I 2-pointed that we would get at least 2 days of sunny warm weather and we did. I felt I had to limit this because of the strong morphic field created by the collective conscious that says we have no control over the weather.
Matrix helped me win at a card game.
When visiting family for the holidays we played a favorite family French card game, Milbournes. I focused my 2-points on the draw pile on on the card in which I needed. Fifty percent of the time I would draw the card in which I needed. I noticed that it seemed to work better if I spoke out loud to the group that "I'm finding the alternate reality in which I am drawing the (insert card I needed) card." Even thought the group didn't believe in this hoaky stuff there collective observation seemed to help.
Healing my Knee
After that first initial session right after the Matrix Seminar, my knee continued to get better. My knee began to hurt when it was bent in certain ways about 5 months ago. It was the beginning of July when I started writing my memoir and delving back into some very deep and painful stuff. I never got a chance to completely clear the emotions that were stirred that summer because in the Fall I had to move and the transition took a lot of my time and focus. I knew that not being able to move forward because of the memories was the cause of the knee problem, but I simply didn't have the time to clear it. Matrix fixed it right up and after 5 months of suffering with it, it took about a month to get to a place where I hardly notice it as a problem anymore in my yoga class.
The Ultimate Miracle which Matrix has brought about
The worst side effect of the rape/trauma I experienced when I was 19 was this condition called Vaginismus (see ). Basically I can't have sexual intercourse without feeling an intense searing pain inside my vagina. The rape caused a psychosomatic condition in which my PC muscles go into spasm and block anything from getting inside even tampons. It's a protective measure, but it has been a major source of heart ache and difficulty in my marriage. I feel very safe with my husband and I have worked through so many emotional issues around feeling safe with him sexually and yet after three and a half years of being sexually active with him it is a rare occasion in which we are able to experience pain free sexual intercourse that I was able to really enjoy. So we've had to get really creative and find ways to satisfy each other without having sexual intercourse. Within two weeks of putting the matrix into effect I had the most amazing sex with my husband. I've never seen him react that way and after I orgasmed I laughed so ecstatically. Matrix is so easy you can be 2-pointing in the middle of having sex and it would drop me into this total present moment place that totally intensified the entire interaction. We were able to have pain free sexual intercourse two more times that weekend. It didn't work so good the next weekend or the next. Then it came back again. Once the busyness of the holidays were over the New Year seemed to open up this space in which I could back into doing my Vaginismus workbook and Matrix is giving me the support I need to make it work. I'm hopeful that within a month I'll be having the most incredible sex of my life. This is such a strongly embedded blockage in my field it's been around for a decade. Matrix just cuts right through that blockage.
Parking
Matrix works almost consistently on finding me a great parking spot.
Traffic
I hit 10 mph traffic heading north bound on I-5 as I headed to work one morning. After a few minutes of that, I thought, "Okay I can't take this anymore." I 2-pointed the traffic moving and immediately my foot lowered down on the accelerated and the car lurched forward as the traffic suddenly moved and allowed me to get up to 50 mph. I went from 10 to 50 mph in less than a minute. Sometimes we just forget how powerful we are and that we don't have to just sit and accept a situation as it is.
Changing the Weather
This one is a little more difficult for me to feel like I have control over. As we headed out of the worst snow storm the Seattle area has seen in 44 years, I 2-pointed the predicted weather for Los Angeles. I really need some warm days and currently the weather for Christmas Eve was 55 degrees and raining, a cold snap for L.A. The weather predicted that it wouldn't get up to 70 degrees until after we had to return back to Seattle. I 2-pointed that we would get at least 2 days of sunny warm weather and we did. I felt I had to limit this because of the strong morphic field created by the collective conscious that says we have no control over the weather.
Matrix helped me win at a card game.
When visiting family for the holidays we played a favorite family French card game, Milbournes. I focused my 2-points on the draw pile on on the card in which I needed. Fifty percent of the time I would draw the card in which I needed. I noticed that it seemed to work better if I spoke out loud to the group that "I'm finding the alternate reality in which I am drawing the (insert card I needed) card." Even thought the group didn't believe in this hoaky stuff there collective observation seemed to help.
Healing my Knee
After that first initial session right after the Matrix Seminar, my knee continued to get better. My knee began to hurt when it was bent in certain ways about 5 months ago. It was the beginning of July when I started writing my memoir and delving back into some very deep and painful stuff. I never got a chance to completely clear the emotions that were stirred that summer because in the Fall I had to move and the transition took a lot of my time and focus. I knew that not being able to move forward because of the memories was the cause of the knee problem, but I simply didn't have the time to clear it. Matrix fixed it right up and after 5 months of suffering with it, it took about a month to get to a place where I hardly notice it as a problem anymore in my yoga class.
The Ultimate Miracle which Matrix has brought about
The worst side effect of the rape/trauma I experienced when I was 19 was this condition called Vaginismus (see ). Basically I can't have sexual intercourse without feeling an intense searing pain inside my vagina. The rape caused a psychosomatic condition in which my PC muscles go into spasm and block anything from getting inside even tampons. It's a protective measure, but it has been a major source of heart ache and difficulty in my marriage. I feel very safe with my husband and I have worked through so many emotional issues around feeling safe with him sexually and yet after three and a half years of being sexually active with him it is a rare occasion in which we are able to experience pain free sexual intercourse that I was able to really enjoy. So we've had to get really creative and find ways to satisfy each other without having sexual intercourse. Within two weeks of putting the matrix into effect I had the most amazing sex with my husband. I've never seen him react that way and after I orgasmed I laughed so ecstatically. Matrix is so easy you can be 2-pointing in the middle of having sex and it would drop me into this total present moment place that totally intensified the entire interaction. We were able to have pain free sexual intercourse two more times that weekend. It didn't work so good the next weekend or the next. Then it came back again. Once the busyness of the holidays were over the New Year seemed to open up this space in which I could back into doing my Vaginismus workbook and Matrix is giving me the support I need to make it work. I'm hopeful that within a month I'll be having the most incredible sex of my life. This is such a strongly embedded blockage in my field it's been around for a decade. Matrix just cuts right through that blockage.
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